14. What I should have said?

“You’re a dick. An absolute fucking dick. I can’t believe how ridiculous your behaviour was before. You’re so rude and it’s like you don’t even care. And then you don’t even consider how it might make me feel. I really don’t want to argue with you, because I haven’t got the energy anymore. I’m just tired of it.”
That’s what I should have said. 

When he asked me “Is everything ok?” What I should have said was “No actually it’s not because you’re a dick. An absolute fucking dick. Your behaviour was ridiculous. You’re so rude and you don’t even care about it or how it might make me feel. I really don’t want to argue with you, because I haven’t got the energy anymore. I’m just tired of it.”

Instead I just said “fine.” 

I don’t even know what fine means. I shouldn’t have said fine. I should have said what I just said, but I’ve had 3 hours to think about that and write it down properly, and now he’s gone home and things like that should not be said over text. 

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